Well, it's 2012 and all I can say is WOW!  The last time I posted a blog it was back in October. I just sat here and read it and thought, "wow that feels like such a long time ago." In reality, it hasn't been that long. It has been 4 months. It has been four months since I met my fiance Dan! Little did I know that going up to Victorville that day back in October with my best friend would change my life in so many ways.

Yup, we are engaged! I have the ring and everything. I am planning my wedding. I have a guest list, I have picked out a dress, I have the colors, we have the pastor and so many more other things are falling into place. It is such a weird feeling but a great feeling. God is blessing us so much with our wedding plans and showing us that as long as we keep Him #1 in our relationship He is going to bless us. People have been giving us services as gifts or at discounted prices. We have had to make some adjustments to things we want but in the end its going t be worth it. In the end, we are going to be husband and wife. Giving up a few things here and there is totally worth it. 

If you would have asked me 2 years ago if I ever thought this would happen to me, I would have told you HECK NO! I had given up on finding true love. I thought I had found true love and it actually was the opposite. It was fake love. The love you create because you either don't want to be alone or you don't want to let go of something toxic in your life. I had finally come to a point where I said, "you know God, if you have someone out there for me then I will wait for you to bring him to me. If not, I am fine being single and will live my life just like that because it's what You want for me." Now here I am with an amazing man and his kids who are amazing and we are going to be a family.

Some people have asked me, "are you scared?" I am human! Yes I am scared. I am scared we won't make enough to support ourselves or we will struggle. However, when I start to doubt things, I stop and remember that God brought us together. God is the one who is making this all possible. We will be okay and we will be blessed. We have God on our side, friends who love us and a family that cares for us. We are going to be just fine. I am excited to be a step-mom and who knows, maybe one day (NOT ANY DAY SOON) a mother to my own child. Either way, I will be a form of a mother to 3 great children. I just trust in God that He will have me be a positive influence in their lives!

So back to the wedding planning table and the prayer table. On Sunday, my fiance and I are going to become members of our church up in Apple Valley. I am so excited. I have finally found a church that feels like home. When I go there the Pastor makes me feel so encouraged and full of the Holy Spirit. I can't wait till I can get involved with the church and go to Bible studies and help in any way I can. 

As my old youth pastor Joe used to say, "God is good all the time and all the time God is good!"